seems that we are all always challenged with circumstances. For something we dont need, for the benefit of others, we have to suffer. Its not fair. I think it is so cruel to us.
i think there’s a always a limit to insults, jokes. First it was mean to insult my capability. I have never said i was capable, but i am not an idiot. Also i dislike how the joke is used all the time. Must every person i mentioned means that i like them? Do you have to keep on reminding me that they are attached or married, as if i dont know that already? Also, dont assume that you know everything about me just becos you know one small secret of me. I choose to tell selective people, doesnt make you any more special.
I also cant stand hypocrites. They said they love the someone so much… then after they left or died, within 2 years, they already found another person they love. Is this love? Sometimes i wonder. I mean i am not against it, but do it with more tact and sensitivity if we knew that someone. Then you invite us to the wedding as if we have forgotten.
I also cant stand arrogant people who think they are humble. Please, that is so fake. I feel like vomitting. You said we are the arrogant ones but we have never boast of anything we have. In fact, we are more in awe by the extend of your good fortune. never once, did we feel the need to show off cos we can never beat you.
I was so pissed off, that i walked out on my friends today. There’s a threshold for everything.
Started this morning with a dental appointment. Rushed out of the house to go to the dentist at Oceans tower. Almost forgot how to go there… I was quite nervous about it. Supposed to visit the dentist once a year or every 6 months, but I dont really like it. =p
thankfully, it was a short and sweet experience this time. =)
today, i told myself to pretend that I was in Japan, (so that i could experience the same things that Ms koo is having)… Since i cant go Japan, i will bring Japan to me! i wore something that looks Kawaii. hehe… I shopped at far East. Bought cute shoes! Then walked to Isetan to shop at the supermarket. So fun! I bought shishamo fish, sushi, ramen, kimchi (korean though), korean chilli powder, japanese curry, miso soup… =) Lovely, came back home, i cooked the ramen and ate it all by myself… cos mom took so long to come back… we ate some sushi and the kimchi… the joys of being a tai-tai. i wish i could have that….
then switched on the laptop, and start my day normally… sigh….
On leave tomorrow. Finally going to the dentist. Last week I was asked to join in a party, but looks like it got cancelled or I wasnt invited. hmmm. abit disappointed. somehow. this week was hectic. alot of access rights to remove and add. terrible. i owe so much work….
someone asked me quite an interesting question. would i ever get bored with my friends? when i see them almost everyday, hang out with them constantly, talk to them regularly. But i realised, i dont i get bored. unless my friends got bored of me. I recalled once i told someone that he/she will be bored with me after a while, the person replied no. Now, we dont even talk to each other. is it me who is boring?
Heard this song over the radio. I love the song, especially after i saw the lyrics.
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
“Hey, you know, this could be something”
‘Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I’m left with nothing
So maybe it’s true
That I can’t live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there’s so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you thought that it got me coming undone
And I’m thinking two is better than one (two is better than one, Boys like girls ft Taylor Swift)
hectic, hectic…. so busy that i dont even have time to breathe. so many billing problems. sigh. i have no idea why i feel so dejected and depressed today…
Heard the song below when i was in a shop before dinner yesterday. I couldnt hear much of the words except the chorus. The tune and voice caught me.
Why does it rain?
Why does it hurt?
Please God explain,
’cause I don’t understand.
Love made me fly,
Now I just cry.
Please tell me why, (Oh, tell me.)
Why does it rain? (Why does it rain, Darin)
it means nothing. except crowded places, late nights, crazy people who can display their costumes (like me. hahah), it means we can take photos without reasons or reservations.
went to sevenatenine pub at the esplanade. the place was quite simple, overlooking the bay. we could do people watching, watch people walking by, while they look at us.
I got to try whiskey dry. And I loved it. Next time, i would rather have that than the boring vodka sprite that i always drink. We got to meet alot of new people, which was rather fun! =)
the night before, I went to the aesu gathering which was quite boring. Food-wise, not much left when i reached there, though i reach at 7 plus… not really worth my cab fare down… sigh… forget it. I did get to enjoy some nice music, which they sang my 2 requests. =) I love Jewel’s foolish games, and One Republic’s Apologize. After that, I really wanted to go home. But ST wanted to come out, so I decided and all of us went to Butter Factory. I chose that place, cos i thought it would be better than the one at river valley, and I didnt want to go St. James again, I just went last week. I chose that place out of my rebel streak. =p
But i think it wasnt such a bad choice, although i didnt enjoy it. I didnt like the music, I didnt like the crowd. At least I didnt need to pay for the cover charge. that would be the last time i will ever go there.
I watched this advert. “Sometimes, I would act like a child to you, but its cos I want your attention” It was the last line that depict how i feel too. Love. It has no expiration date.
Watched briefly on a korean drama which my mom was watching just now. The lady thought she was in love. The guy was hot, young and flirting with her… Her friend warned her that that guy was a player, he probably flirts with every girl. then her friend ended up edging her that since she liked him, why not still go ahead before she gets dumped. hmmm… what kind of dumb advice is that? So for a short time, the amount of hurt caused by it isnt worth that. maybe some girls can get over it just as easily as guys. maybe they learnt to be cold and insincere like men…
for every 99 times you looked me in the eye
you looked me in the eye and swore you weren’t lying
I was so blind I never saw the signs
i’m getting out tonight and you’re not invited
it’s a shame that you left me hanging
like you did it was brave but it was much more foolish,
don’t you think? Don’t you think?
cause you know I wont be satisfied until you realize (99 times, Kate Voegele)
I had a dream recently which i could remember quite distinctly. Amazingly, i could remember. The scene was set in my secondary school days. It was a sweet dream. There was a real cute guy in it… The story was abit like the korean romance stories. =)
Feeling very cramped and stressed. feeling sick as well. So much work i have to do… Why is it I can still be distracted?
I cant wait for my first Halloween party… I never went for dress-up parties before other than the PCEO award last year, which was one of the best event i ever attended and organised. Hmmm… wonder what i should wear… Need to get back to work, before going to sleep earlier tonight….
And you know
It’s just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can’t wait
Boy you know all the right things to say
(You know it’s just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don’t like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn’t matter anyway
(You know it’s just too little too late) (too little too late, Jojo)
irritated by my sore throat. I am not feeling too well… sigh… it seems too much rest can also make me fall sick… sigh…
i am suddenly so scared to go back to work tomorrow… i have alot to do… sob sob… another week of stress… here we go again.
The song below is rather interesting. Depicts the person as a robot with no real love in them.
Each step you make
each breath you take
Your heart,
your soul,
remote controlled
This life is so sick
You’re automatic to me
(There’s no real love in you)
(There’s no real love in you)
There’s no real love in you
There’s no real love in you
There’s no real love in you
There’s no real love in you
There’s no real love in you
Why do I keep loving you? (Automatic, Tokio Hotel)
