Started this morning with a dental appointment. Rushed out of the house to go to the dentist at Oceans tower. Almost forgot how to go there… I was quite nervous about it. Supposed to visit the dentist once a year or every 6 months, but I dont really like it. =p

thankfully, it was a short and sweet experience this time. =)

today, i told myself to pretend that I was in Japan, (so that i could experience the same things that Ms koo is having)… Since i cant go Japan, i will bring Japan to me!  i wore something that looks Kawaii. hehe… I shopped at far East. Bought cute shoes! Then walked to Isetan to shop at the supermarket. So fun! I bought shishamo fish, sushi, ramen, kimchi (korean though), korean chilli powder, japanese curry, miso soup… =) Lovely, came back home, i cooked the ramen and ate it all by myself… cos mom took so long to come back… we ate some sushi and the kimchi… the joys of being a tai-tai. i wish i could have that….

then switched on the laptop, and start my day normally… sigh….

On leave tomorrow. Finally going to the dentist. Last week I was asked to join in a party, but looks like it got cancelled or I wasnt invited. hmmm. abit disappointed. somehow. this week was hectic. alot of access rights to remove and add. terrible. i owe so much work….

someone asked me quite an interesting question. would i ever get bored with my friends? when i see them almost everyday, hang out with them constantly, talk to them regularly. But i realised, i dont i get bored. unless my friends got bored of me. I recalled once i told someone that he/she will be bored with me after a while, the person replied no. Now, we dont even talk to each other. is it me who is boring?

Heard this song over the radio. I love the song, especially after i saw the lyrics.

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
“Hey, you know, this could be something”
‘Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I’m left with nothing

So maybe it’s true
That I can’t live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there’s so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you thought that it got me coming undone
And I’m thinking two is better than one (two is better than one, Boys like girls ft Taylor Swift)

hectic, hectic…. so busy that i dont even have time to breathe. so many billing problems. sigh. i have no idea why i feel so dejected and depressed today…

Heard the song below when i was in a shop before dinner yesterday. I couldnt hear much of the words except the chorus. The tune and voice caught me.

Why does it rain?
Why does it hurt?
Please God explain,
’cause I don’t understand.
Love made me fly,
Now I just cry.
Please tell me why, (Oh, tell me.)
Why does it rain? (Why does it rain, Darin)

it means nothing. except crowded places, late nights, crazy people who can display their costumes (like me. hahah), it means we can take photos without reasons or reservations.

went to sevenatenine pub at the esplanade. the place was quite simple, overlooking the bay. we could do people watching, watch people walking by, while they look at us.

I got to try whiskey dry. And I loved it. Next time, i would rather have that than the boring vodka sprite that i always drink. We got to meet alot of new people, which was rather fun! =)

the night before, I went to the aesu gathering which was quite boring. Food-wise, not much left when i reached there, though i reach at 7 plus… not really worth my cab fare down… sigh… forget it. I did get to enjoy some nice music, which they sang my 2 requests. =) I love Jewel’s foolish games, and One Republic’s Apologize. After that, I really wanted to go home. But ST wanted to come out, so I decided and all of us went to Butter Factory. I chose that place, cos i thought it would be better than the one at river valley, and I didnt want to go St. James again, I just went last week. I chose that place out of my rebel streak. =p

But i think it wasnt such a bad choice, although i didnt enjoy it. I didnt like the music, I didnt like the crowd. At least I didnt need to pay for the cover charge.  that would be the last time i will ever go there.

I watched this advert. “Sometimes, I would act like a child to you, but its cos I want your attention” It was the last line that depict how i feel too. Love. It has no expiration date.

Watched briefly on a korean drama which my mom was watching just now. The lady thought she was in love. The guy was hot, young and flirting with her… Her friend warned her that that guy was a player, he probably flirts with every girl. then her friend ended up edging her that since she liked him, why not still go ahead before she gets dumped. hmmm… what kind of dumb advice is that? So for a short time, the amount of hurt caused by it isnt worth that. maybe some girls can get over it just as easily as guys. maybe they learnt to be cold and insincere like men…
for every 99 times you looked me in the eye
you looked me in the eye and swore you weren’t lying
I was so blind I never saw the signs
i’m getting out tonight and you’re not invited

it’s a shame that you left me hanging
like you did it was brave but it was much more foolish,
don’t you think? Don’t you think?

cause you know I wont be satisfied until you realize (99 times, Kate Voegele)

I had a dream recently which i could remember quite distinctly. Amazingly, i could remember. The scene was set in my secondary school days. It was a sweet dream. There was a real cute guy in it… The story was abit like the korean romance stories. =)

Feeling very cramped and stressed. feeling sick as well. So much work i have to do… Why is it I can still be distracted?

I cant wait for my first Halloween party… I never went for dress-up parties before other than the PCEO award last year, which was one of the best event i ever attended and organised. Hmmm… wonder what i should wear… Need to get back to work, before going to sleep earlier tonight….

And you know
It’s just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can’t wait
Boy you know all the right things to say
(You know it’s just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don’t like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn’t matter anyway
(You know it’s just too little too late) (too little too late, Jojo)

irritated by my sore throat. I am not feeling too well… sigh…  it seems too much rest can also make me fall sick… sigh…

i am suddenly so scared to go back to work tomorrow… i have alot to do… sob sob… another week of stress… here we go again.

The song below is rather interesting. Depicts the person as a robot with no real love in them.

Each step you make
each breath you take
Your heart,
your soul,
remote controlled
This life is so sick
You’re automatic to me

(There’s no real love in you)
(There’s no real love in you)

There’s no real love in you
There’s no real love in you
There’s no real love in you
There’s no real love in you
There’s no real love in you
Why do I keep loving you? (Automatic, Tokio Hotel)

i think the Bintan trip was rather good. not much stress, not much worry. L drove us there to the TM ferry terminal, we checked in, and filled in the white card, before going through the immigration access point.

the ferry ride was quite fun. saw a group of people (mainly man u fans) seated next to us. One guy had on a scent that i quite fancy, Davidoff cool water. nice…

we took the coach to the Nirwana Gardens. There was a welcome party and drink, while we waited to check in. thankfully we could check in at that time. the buggy sent us to the villa, which looked quite nice, except for the many lizard droppings… ermm… looks like it had been a while since the last occupancy. We went to the rooms, rested, while i checked my emails. Then we went for lunch at the Rin japanese restaurant, which was quite near where we stayed.

the food was so-so, but the ambience was quite lovely. It started to rain, while we ate. we went to buy slippers, and walked around the resort center. it was very empty, practically looked like we had reserved the whole place. one thing good about holiday taken during the weekdays, is that there arent much people or crowd, which i like!

we went  back to the villa again, then i read my emails again, before heading out to the beach. =p ooo… the sea water was quite clear, although low tide, we could see jelly fish, fishes, crabs and star fish. cool. We went to the swimming pool which was empty too. hehe… Washed off all the sand the sea water, cos it was getting itchy for us. Thankfully, my sensitive skin didnt breakout.

Went back to wash up before going for dinner. We had dinner at the Kelong, which was quite a distance away from the villa. The food was pretty good, we had a ten course meal! we were so full, we decided to take a walk to the Calypso bar, which was a bridge away. Even at night, we could see the fishes swimming around.

We went back in the buggy again, the driver showed us the wildlife kept in the hotel premises. There were snakes, crocodiles, catfish, birds. So scary.

Then we watched abit of tv, I read and answered my mails, before going to bed.

woke up a few times, then went for breakfast about 8. ate at the restaurant. the food was ok. loved the pancakes!

then we took a stroll at the beach again. came back to hotel to rest, and read my emails. thereafter, we went for sauna. It was quite good, except, my sore throat was quite bad, so i had to come out of it when it got too hot.

showered, then we packed and left for checkout and massage. Amazingly, i met a friend from ITD. He was with his parents. very surprising… didnt expect to see people i know there.

the massage was quite an eye-opener. I had never done this before, never fully unclothed in a room with people. so scary and frightening… not an experience that i will want to have it anytime soon…

we went to pasar oleh oleh to shop and have lunch.

then went back to hotel, picked up our luggages and head towards the ferry!

i met a guy who reminded me of Ruan JingTian. So goodlooking, except he looked more nerdish than him, but still cute… =p RJT had more pouty lips and strong charisma… sigh…  would be so nice if i can meet such a guy. heh.

reached back home, and rushed out to go kbox with the apron dept people. they are quite nice people… =)

thereafter, followed them to st. james, but i think i had enough of it, so decided to say goodbye and walked out of there.

yay… finally on leave again… =) this time for 2 days, 1 night at Bintan. I have never been to Bintan. So exciting… But also need to clear my work… else pile up again, and kill me… sigh…

Hopefully it will be fun and relaxing, and i will get to do things i never did before!! first thing, i have never stayed in a villa before! =p

Oooo… Korean festival in singapore… How cool is that?! =p

Maksim is in town soon…. I really want to watch him play… pity… think there wouldnt be anyone interested to watch it with me…. sigh….

And then there is a Halloween event that looks so fun! A Spy on Spy Halloween Edition – Murder Mystery Night Supper Theatre

Today i went to SFI to go through the mapping for the project. Its really no joke to go there, its so far and secluded. Suddenly I am thankful to be working at AFT. Gotta say that I have learnt to be thankful. Really amazed at how those people can stand the smell, not that i cant stand the smell, just that i lost my appetite just smelling the place constantly. the people over there were nice, and the place was rather stress-free, other than the frequent phone calls from people.

Today was such a hot day. I would wish to had some ice cream.

was rather disappointed with someone. Firstly, i received the email at 3 plus pm, and i was at still at SFI, the email loading was slow. And if you noticed the out of office message, you would realise that i was not in office, how could you expect me to reply within that working day? Secondly, I am under no obligation to reply. It was a query, a request, that was not even urgent. I have more urgent requests which involve few thousands of dollars, i had some bosses chasing me. This, with a whole load of emails, about 80 and counting. To be fair, you could ask in a much nicer tone, even in IM, you could really ask more politely. I would surely help you, no matter how close the friendship would be. I would try my best to help, sometimes i may be slow in reply, caught up with work. I really wish you would respect me as a human being. I had to work till 8p.m just to go through some of the emails. And still I had so many to go through, so many things to do….

was quite frustrated with another one. you asked for the change forcefully, then i made the change, now you are asking me why its this way. What the hell… Do you think i am so free to entertain this sort of things. One moment you want this, i told you it was not necessary, next moment you want it back…. I just dont understand. Is my life so boring, so untaxing that i should deserve this?

I am just quite tired of all these. I dont know how to please anybody anymore. I am also a human being. Please treat me like one.